Why is it that I am attracted to those men that are unemployed, have emotional issues and are frustrated with the world because things aren't going their way? Why is it that the guys that I'm attracted to are LDS temple recommend holders but are seriously afraid of the world and afraid that life is going to come crashing down on them and they don't want to commit. Isn't this what life is supposed to be like? Isn't this what life is supposed to deal us as mortal beings on this earth?
Isn't life supposed to be exciting, fun and full of charity and love? Isn't it what we do with this life and how we live it the pre-course for life to come? I pray with full heart that those men and women out there that are scared of life, trials and terrible things that come their way, just see the hand of the Lord in EVERYTHING and now that he has total control.
Someone asked me if I'd ever marry again and I told them, heck ya. Who wants to be single for the rest of their life and who wants to be alone in the after life. I'd marry again because that way he can take care of me. Isn't that what men want to do, take care of a women, her needs and her kids (which I don't have any of). Isn't that what a woman wants, to be taken care of and pampered and spend all the money that the man brings home? This kind of life sucks. I can't imagine doing that to someone. I make my own money and I can take care of myself, HOWEVER, I am soooo willing to share and give up A LOT to get A LOT. I'd give up my job in a HEARTBEAT to be a wife and a mother. I want to date and get to know someone because we have things in common, not because he has money or the lack there of. I want to get to know someone because I have an special interest in them and their life and who they are not because of how HUGE their bank account is or how they look or how fat or skinny or how beautiful or handsome they are. I want to get to know someone and date them so that I can potentially marry them for eternity. Dang it, if life was all about looks we wouldn't have eyes and we wouldn't have the feelings of love and touch and senses to kiss and be romantic with someone. I love all of that, it is exciting and its moving.
Oh well, enough crying and feeling pity and playing "victim" which I am not of at all. My divorce has been a HUGE blessing in my life and those that I'm in contact with. I'm just going to move forward and if someone finds that they want to date me, they'll ask or someone will ask for them. I'm to old to play games.
Love,
Karen
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