Why is it that I am attracted to those men that are unemployed, have emotional issues and are frustrated with the world because things aren't going their way? Why is it that the guys that I'm attracted to are LDS temple recommend holders but are seriously afraid of the world and afraid that life is going to come crashing down on them and they don't want to commit. Isn't this what life is supposed to be like? Isn't this what life is supposed to deal us as mortal beings on this earth?
Isn't life supposed to be exciting, fun and full of charity and love? Isn't it what we do with this life and how we live it the pre-course for life to come? I pray with full heart that those men and women out there that are scared of life, trials and terrible things that come their way, just see the hand of the Lord in EVERYTHING and now that he has total control.
Someone asked me if I'd ever marry again and I told them, heck ya. Who wants to be single for the rest of their life and who wants to be alone in the after life. I'd marry again because that way he can take care of me. Isn't that what men want to do, take care of a women, her needs and her kids (which I don't have any of). Isn't that what a woman wants, to be taken care of and pampered and spend all the money that the man brings home? This kind of life sucks. I can't imagine doing that to someone. I make my own money and I can take care of myself, HOWEVER, I am soooo willing to share and give up A LOT to get A LOT. I'd give up my job in a HEARTBEAT to be a wife and a mother. I want to date and get to know someone because we have things in common, not because he has money or the lack there of. I want to get to know someone because I have an special interest in them and their life and who they are not because of how HUGE their bank account is or how they look or how fat or skinny or how beautiful or handsome they are. I want to get to know someone and date them so that I can potentially marry them for eternity. Dang it, if life was all about looks we wouldn't have eyes and we wouldn't have the feelings of love and touch and senses to kiss and be romantic with someone. I love all of that, it is exciting and its moving.
Oh well, enough crying and feeling pity and playing "victim" which I am not of at all. My divorce has been a HUGE blessing in my life and those that I'm in contact with. I'm just going to move forward and if someone finds that they want to date me, they'll ask or someone will ask for them. I'm to old to play games.
Love,
Karen
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Missing Information
Isn't it sad sometimes when you want to know the missing links to issues that come up in your life and then when you find out what they are, they hurt and make you feel terrible. I am hurt right now because of something that someone said about me and you know. I'll get over it within the next day or two because I have more important things to worry about than think of why a person doesn't like, love or have interest in me.
It is interesting to know that someone who once loved or you thought they loved you now says that they never did and that they don't want anything to do with you because of how I look. I just don't understand that mortal, unrealistic thought. Really? Someone doesn't like me because of how I dress, how my body is, how I walk, how I talk, or even how I do my hair. Someone isn't interested in me because there is no physical attraction there. I think that the person should have thought about that before they even caught a second glimpse at me.
I will be over this issue in my life in a few hours and even as long as a day because I know that the one person in my life who lives me for me and doesn't care what I look like, nor how I dress or how my body is after I loose 130 pounds. Of course, it is going to be ugly, of course it is going to have some flaws but to marry someone and then get a divorce because of what I look like, that just doesn't make any sense at all.
I know that my Heavenly Father loves me for me. I know that my short legs and my pudgy body and my strange hair and acne face to him does not make a difference at all. I know that it is what I do and who I follow and the commandments that I choose to endure with, is what the only man in my life needs me to do and with that being said; I'm a blessed daughter of a Loving Heavenly Father.
It is interesting to know that someone who once loved or you thought they loved you now says that they never did and that they don't want anything to do with you because of how I look. I just don't understand that mortal, unrealistic thought. Really? Someone doesn't like me because of how I dress, how my body is, how I walk, how I talk, or even how I do my hair. Someone isn't interested in me because there is no physical attraction there. I think that the person should have thought about that before they even caught a second glimpse at me.
I will be over this issue in my life in a few hours and even as long as a day because I know that the one person in my life who lives me for me and doesn't care what I look like, nor how I dress or how my body is after I loose 130 pounds. Of course, it is going to be ugly, of course it is going to have some flaws but to marry someone and then get a divorce because of what I look like, that just doesn't make any sense at all.
I know that my Heavenly Father loves me for me. I know that my short legs and my pudgy body and my strange hair and acne face to him does not make a difference at all. I know that it is what I do and who I follow and the commandments that I choose to endure with, is what the only man in my life needs me to do and with that being said; I'm a blessed daughter of a Loving Heavenly Father.
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