Fear...

I mailed all of my forms to the court where Nathan filed divorce last week and when I called today to see if they got all 3 copies, the directions and the mailing information including a certified envelope to mail to Nathan and the $256 fee, nobody seems to know what is going on. All they see is that Nathan filed for divorce.

I guess, I just lost out on over $300 and Nathan got his wishes. May he be in peace and have a life full of whatever it is that he wants by himself since he would always tell me that he didn't need to be married to be happy or to live with God.

I don't get it. I hope that he is happy and that Heavenly Father does bless him so that way he doesn't think about himself anymore and that he'll come to terms with what he has done and who he has hurt. Apparently, this situation has hurt many people. Don't ask me who, because I have no idea. There are no children in this situation and parents ans siblings don't count because they weren't married to us, that is why they are siblings and parents and not spouses.

I read a lot of good articles from the new www.lds.org site over the weekend and they were very helpful to me. Ironic enough, I think I'm going to go see a counselor at LDS Social Services.

Karen

Forgiveness

I will need to ask for forgiveness of men and women also of my Heavenly Father. I yelled at someone last week for be a jerk to me and then I turned around and was a jerk back about the sacred issues in which I am going through.

I just learned from an article, Alone through Divorce, that I need to keep my mouth shut and humbly, after reading the article, that I will do.

So, for those that I have offended, I'm sorry and for those who don't care, well my apologize are in line anyways.

I didn't feel well today so I didn't go to work. I have slept a lot today on and off and even did some laundry.

Here is the latest picture of me too. I took it of myself yesterday right before I had to leave to go to church.

Love,

Karen

I did it

I bought myself a ticket to go see Les Mis on
Friday, Jun 10, 2011 @
07:30 PM

I can't wait. I'm in the 7th row on the floor near the orchestra! If I had not purchased my ticket now, who knows where I'd be sitting if at all on a Friday night on the floor!

I'm sooooooooooo excited.

Karen

Another Day

I was not able to file the respondent papers as I had planned on Wednesday because I am here in Maricopa County and he is in Cochise (he totally knew that by moving he thought that the divorce would be easier) County. So, the lady at the court house gave me all of the information to file via mail and have the paperwork sent down to the clerks office there and have his served in Douglas.

It makes it a lot easier for me, as all I have to do is put it in the mail and have it notarized this morning.

Just the update.

Karen

PS...I'm getting a ticket to go see Les Mis in June...sweetness!

Primary suggestions

I have a couple of ideas of how to engage my primary class in the lessons and to learn what the lesson is about, however, I need a couple of teaching ideas if anyone has any from either the secular side or the spiritual side.

Anything right now would be helpful. I have the teaching, no greater call book and that will come in handy and I have books for FHE that will come in handy too.

I know that there are some awesome teachers out there and just want to get some great ideas from all of you smarty pants!

Karen

Today is the day

I'm going down to the court house today to file my "respondent" papers. I get to take the train to downtown Phoenix and walk in to the court house. Yahoo! What a place. I've been there twice already this summer and it smells like a bathroom that needs to be cleaned just a tad better. It would look and feel really nice if they added a few flower decors and added a few scented candles.

I've been told that it will only take a few minutes so I'll be doing it during my lunch hour today. I don't expect it to take very long anyways, since I'm just filing papers and not having to go and sit there and tell them that my marriage turned out to be a joke and that my husband only used me to have a place to live, have food to eat, which I didn't make a lot of and to get an education and a good paying job.

Any girl who thinks that a man will stick with her after he gets on his feet financially and emotionally is lying to herself. I guess I have to say that I was the sucker in this relationship and that I was lying to myself. I don't care if they are LDS or not. Men are men and women are women. Nathan told me that our marriage didn't mean anything anyways and that he new that he shouldn't have done it, whatever that means and why he says that I have NNNOOOOO idea. Oh well, after he is served with my side of the papers, he'll think twice about what he is doing and the divorce will take longer than he has anticipated and that isn't my fault. I wouldn't have put nearly the amount of stuff in the papers if he would have just let me do them as I asked him too, but ooohhhhhhhhhhhhh no, he had to be prideful and a complete retard about it, soooooooooooo, he is getting what he deserves, NOTHING!

He has what he deserves, his pride, his stupid truck, which by the way, he put on his papers that I could have if I paid his student loan.....hahahahahahahahaha, no judge will do that, EVER...what idiot would put that on divorce papers! Seriously?

On a good note, I'm going to Hawaii with my parents the first week of November for my grandmas birthday and for a tour of the LDS Laie Temple as it has been closed for renovations and we'll be able to go. I'm soooo excited. We'll be staying in Haliewa at the Hostel because my aunts house is still under construction and the farm just is in total shambles right now. The hostel is nice, Tiffany and I stayed there and it was awesome.

I need to close this, get to work and go to the court house today.

Love,

Karen

I just wanted to give the update

Nathan served me with divorce papers and the stupid thing about it, they are TOTALLY blank. If he thinks that I'm not going to ask for a certain $$ amount or to send up items that he still has that belong to me, he is out of his mind.

I had an inclination to leave work early yesterday so I went home. I walked the dog and within minutes, someone was knocking on the door to give me the papers. It was supposed to be. If I didn't sign for them and contest what he put or in his case, what he didn't put on the forms, then it would prove that he "wins" and that the ball is in his court. Well, I have another thing coming, the ball is not in his court and I'm submitting my side of it all this week. I told him to wait and that I'd send the papers, well, now because he chose to not wait another 4 days, he will have to deal with some additional drama that he probably didn't think he would get. IF he would have just waited, this entire thing would have gone a lot smoother now, he is going to have to respond to what I ask of now. I get to change my papers and wow, are they really going to change.

The spirit prompted me to go home from work yesterday early and I had no idea why, I didn't even have a key to go swimming or check the mail, so, what was I supposed to do all day? I cleaned up the garage, broke down some more boxes and got the place ready for the bed that is coming today, hopefully.

On a better note, I get to teach primary and am soooo excited. Have a great weekend!

Karen